School changes

We saw the school and it was nice. They have 3 classes per grade. Both boys will have testing done in early August to place them in the grade for their skills. I hope that is not too big of a blow to them. Phil and I will take them out for ice cream tonight to talk with them. One thing that was said that bugged me was when the school pyschologist looked at J’s reading score and said ” I have never seen a score so low before” as if he is so dumb! Phil took it very different. Hmmm…whatever. We will just do what we can to help his reading along over the summer.

I also saw my pdoc and he upped me to 2000 mg. of Depakote each day. This is the extended release. He said not to talk to other BP people about BP cause everyone has a different story and opinion. lol….he knows me and then again, he doesn’t! Ok so we see Ric on Thursday for counseling. I am looking forward to it. I feel so lost with the Encounter Weekend with so much going on at home. I want to focus in with the weekend. I will, I know…more later after we talk with the boys.

Bad timing…

the story of my life! Today is Memorial Day and Caleb asked what it was all about the other day. I explained about soldiers and death and ceremonies and parades. He heard parade and was excited. I think it’s more about the candy for an 8 year old boy. Oh well. He asked to go to our local parade. We were sure it was at 9:30 AM and ended at 10:00 AM and so we hurried out, and got there just as it ended at 9:30 AM. Poor kid. I am not sure who was more upset, me or him! I wanted to be able to do one thing right for one kid one time in my life! Ok, I am being hard on myself.

Noise will once again be part of my house today. Jacob returns from his mini-vacation. He has called us a few times and he had so much fun. He was invited to stay another two weeks but my mil said she didn’t even consider asking us as she knew we would not go for it. And Jacob would have been happy for a day or so, then want to come home. He sounded very tired on the phone last night from all the activity of 4 days. Lauren flies in tonight and I guess I will wait up to hear about her trip.

Tomorrow I see my pdoc again and get more meds or something. Then Phil and I are going to visit the local school. I am feeling good about this move.

I am selling off books I haven’t or don’t use and making some money. I took a picture of a church sign and it’s online! Whoohoo, I am published….ok check out the church sign link on my link section to the right and click on “Church sign generator-real church signs”. Mine is the one from the 28th in Fairlawn, Ohio…

Time to go get Jacob from the in-laws..

I almost forgot

something very important! Phil brought me a wonderfully funny card yesterday along with a hanging basket with purple petunias in it! He is the best. Fabulous as Christine says…

Caleb thought God must love green when we saw this beautiful green “carpet” of mayapples…. 

Phil and Caleb 

the herb garden view 

The herb garden waterfall 

Excitement, pictures and boring rambles…

Yesterday was a restful day. I had only 1 child to be responsible for. Jacob went to SC with his grandparents for the weekend. The girls were working so it was just Caleb and I. We were going to do a mall scavenger hunt with the digital camera, but Phil took it to work. So we waited until he came home from work and he went with us. That made it better. We did try the mall, but poor Caleb got nervous about doing pics in the mall. We took some, had ice cream and coffee. Phil and I shared a blizzard from DQ. It was chocolate brownie dough. All I can say is yum! Caleb really enjoyed having his parents all to himself. Jacob called to let us know they were still on the road and he was seeing palm trees!

Then we found funny church sign that I will submit to the church sign site. We drove to the a local park and went for a hike along it’s trail system. It was great. We saw a fawn and lots of flowering plants. What a nice relaxing walk, although it was hilly in parts. There were so many picture worthy things that we saw and clicked away. We came home with about 75 pics in our camera. But, we found that our little digital doesn’t do close up shots very well. That’s ok. I will post one on here. It was a nice view of one of the sites we saw.

We go to visit the school next Tuesday. I think we are fairly certain this is the direction we are headed. Tomorrow we are visiting with old friends at their house for a picnic. It should be fun! Phil hasn’t seen them in years. They haven’t ever met Caleb and Brit also hasn’t seen them in years. Lauren is flying to Nashville today to visit her friend Deana and her family. Today we are burning our brush from around the yard then we hope to have a date tonight.

I have putting on the armor of God daily and it’s been helping. I am starting the prayer counseling and that will help. There are so many wonderful things on the horizon for me and my getting well. I am excited today about these things. It’s about time I get excited.

Big changes

Things are changing around here for the better. The girls are excited about finding their own place and moving out. They have decided on a local apartment complex and I hope it’s a good place, not full of people dealing drugs and such. The place is at the end of a renovation project so maybe anyone that was of not good quality was booted out? Anyway, I want to go see the place with them. Let’s pray they pass credit checks and all that jazz.

As for schooling, I am waiting on a call from the principal. We hope to go tour the school tomorrow. I think is really for the best at this point in our lives. I am not feeling like a failure because I am doing what my kids need. They need me to be mom and not teacher. They need to not be yelled at or stressed over for learning. I did what I could. I tried hard. Now it’s time for them to be taught by others.

I am finally taking real time to take care of me. I will be able to get my home in order, participate in school activities for the boys, be the wife and mom I want to be. I will have time for myself to really get help for me the way I need it. It’s a good thing. I am doing well with it. Instead of viewing it as loss, I am seeing it as gaining something. This is good.

I have total peace about all this. The smiley face is in my tummy….

Stress factors

I can now see the schooling my boys is a huge stress factor. We are calling the local school tomorrow to set up an appointment. I cannot be of use to my boys any longer, especially Jacob. This is not easy, but I am tired of tears, pain, feelings of failure, anger, yelling, and all the other nasty stuff that happens here on a day we try any school. I haven’t done much with Jacob since my dx, and now I know why. I have already yelled too much and just spent time crying with Phil on the phone. I am so angry. I am not doing them any good to grow up like this. Homeschooling just isn’t for us any more. That is ok with me. It’s been for a season and that season is now ending. Maybe again in the future we will homeschool again, but I don’t know that now. For now, it can’t go on like this. I don’t care what people will say or think! It’s my family and we have to do what is best for us.

So in the future I will have to change my blog’s description…hmmmm……..