Things are changing around here for the better. The girls are excited about finding their own place and moving out. They have decided on a local apartment complex and I hope it’s a good place, not full of people dealing drugs and such. The place is at the end of a renovation project so maybe anyone that was of not good quality was booted out? Anyway, I want to go see the place with them. Let’s pray they pass credit checks and all that jazz.
As for schooling, I am waiting on a call from the principal. We hope to go tour the school tomorrow. I think is really for the best at this point in our lives. I am not feeling like a failure because I am doing what my kids need. They need me to be mom and not teacher. They need to not be yelled at or stressed over for learning. I did what I could. I tried hard. Now it’s time for them to be taught by others.
I am finally taking real time to take care of me. I will be able to get my home in order, participate in school activities for the boys, be the wife and mom I want to be. I will have time for myself to really get help for me the way I need it. It’s a good thing. I am doing well with it. Instead of viewing it as loss, I am seeing it as gaining something. This is good.
I have total peace about all this. The smiley face is in my tummy….
