Mom in Mental Motion

Well I have 1 catalog show and 2 kitchen shows booked. I have 2 more to finalize dates and times. I also have another lead and more calls to make! Things are going well for my Pampered Chef business. I am more comfortable talking and selling my business now than at first. It’s coming easy.
On another note, I am tired of the spam comments on here! Ugh….I hope the word verification will help on that. It’s really annoying and should be illegal! If it doesn’t stop, I will have to discontinue the comment feature. Stupid spammer bots!

The boys are loving school and all the stuff that comes with it. Field trips, special assemblies, skating parties. All cool stuff. Tomorrow they have a hot air balloon assembly to kick off read-a-thon program for the year. I bet they have fun. I am a room mom for Caleb’s class. We have a luncheon with the teacher next week. I am making a Pampered Chef dish for the lunch. Yahoo, another way to build my business. Today I made Mole Chicken Pizza, it was good.

I definitely need more Levothroid. I will begin taking it on Sunday cause I won’t pick it up till tomorrow. We are going to Shaun’s wedding tomorrow. Can you believe it’s a potluck?? lol….

I have 2 parties now, one is a catalog and the other is a demo. I am so excited. I hope to get 2 more on the calendar for October and 1 or 2 for Nov….

news. I had a blood draw and saw my dr. today. I am losing hair by the handful every day in the shower. My ankles and feet are so swollen daily. I have muscle aches and pains, I am tired and I have lost my sex drive. My thyroid must be worse than at first suspected so I will probably increase my levothroid dose. Oh yeah, I have gained like 25 pounds in 3 months! I had to buy new clothes. I am now a Pampered Chef Consultant! I can’t wait to do some shows and make money. I will feel a whole lot better about things here. I want to take some of the pressure off of Phil in regards to the budget and paying bills. This is all I have in me to update today…too tired.

Today is a day of good news and bad news. Brit called and she and Jonathan are officially engaged. That is the good news. The bad news is my mom. She couldn’t even do 3 min. at her stress test. Two years ago she was told she has the beginning stages of emphasema and hasn’t been back to have it monitored. She says since she is still smoking, addicted for 50 some years, the doctors are so rude to her and won’t help her. She is also very depressed and has no money. She is on disability and can’t make any more, can’t work, blah blah blah….I am broken-hearted for her and can’t do a thing. I have my own mental health issues and health issues to deal with and raise my family. Where was she when I was young and needed my mother? She neglected me quite a bit, all of us were.

I just feel so mixed up. I am kind of glad I live 2 hours away, but guilty at the same time. Is that wrong??

Ok, done venting. If you read all this, she needs prayer. I need prayer too.

My pdoc wants me to get seen by a vascular surgeon about the swelling in my feet and ankles since July. It’s not from the medicine. And now I am officially going to be on Lithium and taking less Depakote, more Seroquel. He says its really not a lot of medicine but 6 months ago, I was only taking Ibuprofen for pain! Now look, 4 different medicines and sausage feet daily. A low functioning thyroid and 20 more pounds! Who wouldn’t be crabby and irritable all the time. Oh yeah, sex? When? Not often. I have almost no desire and that is killing me. What’s worse is I am not sure if Phil even notices much. Blah.

This is horrible. This hurricane ripped apart the Gulf Coast. There are towns that are completely gone. I can’t stay away from the news for pictures and stories. I think that is part of the Bipolar nature but in any case, things are horrible. Lives are lost by the thousands, but they won’t report that yet. They say hundreds. We all know better.
Many are waiting for help and don’t know that the nation is doing all sorts of things to help due to not having phone service or electricity. People all over the US are offering housing for victims. Here is one site that is doing a matching service. http://www.homesforkatrina.org/ They will be screening people, which is good.

I saw a few shots of poor little dogs sitting on the rooftops and I wanted to cry. Pets can’t understand what happened. It just hurts to think about the most vulnerable in times like these.

Looters are running around with guns and being a general nuisance in New Orleans. Those people are morally bankrupt. They just don’t care for anyone but themselves.

Ok, I am done recording my thoughts for now. But this isn’t the end.