I found a website that talks about “living with bipolar”! Whoohoo…finally some help. It is very good. It is written by a fellow sufferer with BP. He sounds a lot like me. Or maybe we all sound the same with BP. Anyway, he started his site because there was nothing on the web back in 1999 for living with bipolar. Here is the site in case it would be helpful to anyone. It’s www.livingmanicdepressive.com
The poor goose
Well this morning, a women driving up our road, probably too fast, hit a goose in front of the neighbor’s house. I was in bed, my room faces the road and heard all this goose honking and squawking. Then my dog started barking like mad. The boys were up for school and looked outside. They told me the whole play by play of what was happening. Cops came, took pictures, injured goose went into neighbor’s pond. I am not sure the fate of that goose now.
As for me, I am still in a mixed manic episode. I am up and down. I am crabby and crying. I want to run away and I want to stay. I hate what I am putting my husband through. I am sure he thinks each day, “Will she be there when I get home? And if so, what will she be like?”. My body is so tense and sore from the stress. I can’t relax. My PT isn’t covered yet until they work out some paperwork and redtape. I could use a massage right now. I want to sleep for as long as I can. Why is this happening in May again? It was like this last May too. I have seasonal changes I guess. I am going to search out some information about this. I hope the books I ordered get here soon.
